Stealing this from Tim. 15 people, 15 paragraphs of things I want to tell them. But you don't know who I'm talking to. If you have a paragraph in here, or think you do, please don't ask me if you guessed right. If you think it could've been written to you, assume that it was. Some of these things have been weighing heavily on my heart, some of them are just things I want you to know. You are all people who have changed my life in the last year, for better or worse.

1. I was so scared coming into school this year, but you've made it one of the best experiences of my life. You were one of the first people I met, and even though it took a while to develop a real friendship, now you are one of the people I cherish more than anything. I don't even know if you know how much I cherish your friendship, but hopefully I'll tell you soon. I love you!

2. I hate that I haven't talked to you much lately. I hate that I let this come between us, and that I'm too stubborn to let it go. I hate how I was so persistant and now it's all my fault. I want things back to the way they were. I miss you, and I'm done trying to change you.

3. I've decided to be the bigger man. Things will never be the way they were but at least I am strong enough to be civil. You've proved to me that I can be mature even when other people can't, so thanks for that. Suprisingly, you probably taught me more this year than almost anyone else.

4. You've changed me. You've made me stronger in some ways, and you've brought out some of my weaknesses that I needed to face. You suprise me, you remind me what it's like to really enjoy someone, and you are one of my absolute best friends. You've let me cry, and you've heard me laugh. You have shown me the good inside myself. It hurts me that other people can't seem to understand, but I hope you know that you mean the world to me. In less than a year, you have made me into who I am right this very second.

5. You've hurt me, you've lied, you've done so much crap to me this year, and yet I can't not like you! You'll defend yourself as long as it takes before stepping up and just taking responsibility for all of this. Against my better judgement, I like you. And don't think I'm trying to make you out as a bad guy....you're a good person. But understand that I've been hurt and I'm confused right now and don't know where to go. I've cried over you too much already and now it's time for me to figure out where you're gonna fit into my life.
6. You confuse me, but I'm glad that you're my friend.

7. I miss you so so so so so much! I miss late nights, "babysitters clubs", running through the sprinklers, riding our bikes up and down the street, talking unendingly about our crushes. I think you are the most beautiful person on the face of the earth, and I absolutely cannot wait until I get to be your Maid of Honor and vice versa....in the mean time, no falling in love with any unworthy boys I'm not there to approve of!

8. Just so you know, you annoy the absolute crap outta me, along with all of us. We've tried to clue you in without having to hurt your feelings. Take a hint! I'm alright with lending you money, honestly, but don't tell me you're gonna pay me back and then don't. That's not how you should act if you want us as friends, cuz you have done it to all of us. So, start being one-faced or back off, alright?

9. I'm so sad that we will probably never really talk from now on. We made an unlikely friendship this year and now, although we'll be in the same high school for the next three years, we'll go back to being in our separate worlds. You're amazing, honestly, and I love you. And who knows? Maybe our friendship will survive despite our differences.

10. I appreciated the fact that you listened to me this year. It probably would seem silly to other people, but just haven't an adult who seemed to care meant a lot to me.

11. I regret being so mean to you. The fact that I think you are completely weird and you do scare me a lot is irrelevant- I conformed when I should've stood out. For that, I apologize. Maybe now I'll change.

12. I remember meeting you. You were the first girl I could relate and talk to in my pre-teen/teen years. I bet you didn't know that. I'm glad we've started chatting again- you're still as real as you were back then, and as easy to relate to. I don't know what it is you're going through, but I hope it resolves itself.

13. I'm doing you twice, and I don't care if it's cheating. I wanted you to know that I want a miracle for you. I'm praying for a miracle, cuz I know you need it in many different ways. I love you, and I always have, even though it's been hard.

14. I've been angrier at you than anyone else, I've loved you more than anyone else, I've laughed with you more than anyone else, I've cried in front of you more than anyone else. You are like me and I am like you and you are the most influential person in my life. So I guess all that's left to say is thanks.

15. I've screwed you over, I've neglected you, I've hated you, I've ignored you. But you are the person I need more than anything. I'm not gonna ask for forgiveness, cuz I know you already gave it. All I'm gonna ask is that you hold my hand as I work my way back up.